Lost and Found // Chapter 1

After the incident with Kozmotis, Toothiana was the first guardian moving and went on her way home. Of course she felt the looks her friends threw at her, but she was not strong enough to look into their eyes and ignored them. The tooth fairy was far to occupied sorting her thoughts out and thinking about what had happend. She didn't want the incident to be true. She didn't want to forget, didn't want to forget HIM. She clenched her fists in anger.
"Why ...? Why did he do that ...? "
There could have been another way. He hadn't even given them the opportunity to think about an other solution. Kozmotis had simply decided to let himself be smited by the fearlings again and left the guardians alone. But that wasn't even the wort part.
Before he went to face up the Fearlings, something had happened. Something she would never forget. She had kissed him.
Tooth felt tears running down her cheeks and wiped them away. Also, she couldn't surpress the tingling that she felt in her belly everytime she thought of him and couldn't restain it, even though she knew exactly he would never be the same person he had been after the shadows had attacked and hurt him and and she had looked after him.. He would never be that charming again. He would never put his arm around her shulder again to comfort her. She would never see his golden eyes again. After the re – transformation to "Pitch", his eyes had become silver gray and lost their glint. It hurt to think about him and Tooth felt a painful sting in her heart when she realized just how much she missed him already and how overwhelming her desire to hug him and say those three little, but oh so meaningful words.
A sigh escaped her and she rubbed her left arm a few times. Lost in thought, she arrived at her palace and let her eyes wander across her little fairies who were busy with collecting sleeping children's teeth. Only one of the assistants, Baby Tooth, stopped working as she saw the tooth fairy return and fluttered over. She chirped happily and tooth forced a smile on her face. She didn't want her little friend to worry about her. ,, Hello, Baby Tooth. How is work?", she asked in the most cheerful tone she could muster. The small fairy chirped for some time. The tooth fairy's little assistants couldn't speak, their only way of communication was the chirping and squeaking. Toothinana listened attentively and kept the false smile on her face. Work went well and she was confident that it would remain that way, even if she retired for a while and went to her chambers. ,, Baby Tooth? I'd like to rest a bit. The flight home was rather exhausting… In the meantime, you're the one in charge. Okay, my dear?"
The little fairy nodded, chirped and went back to work. Tooth went back to chambers as fast as possible. With a sigh, she threw herself onto the bed and buried her face in the pillow. She coiled up, closed her eyes and kept completely still until the sun set and the moonlight shone brightly into her room. Tooth slowly opened her eyes and sat up straight. Her eyes found the window and she stood up. The tooth fairy sat down on the windowsill and let her legs dangle. For some time, she observed the peacefully shining full moon and felt anger bubbling up inside her. She became angry at herself. Maybe she should have done something, maybe she should have protected Kozmotis… But above all, she was angry at the man in the moon. He was the one who had turned Kozmotis into Pitch and he couldn't even explain his reasons for doing so!
Her rage threatened to overwhelm her and Tooth punched the windowsill. ,, Why? Why have to done that to him? Why did you turn him into Pitch? Damn it, why?!" Her voice echoed into the night, but then silence fell again and her waiting for an answer was in vain. Her grip on the windowsill became tenser. Angry, she grid her teeth together and stared up to the moon.
,, He had a daughter and a wife! He loved them! Why have you done that to him?!" Once again, there was no one to answer her. A disappointed sound escaped Tooth's lips. She punched the windowsill again, hard.
,, Just as father and daughter find each other, you turn him into Pitch again! God damn it! He can't remember her in this state! Or me…"
Tooth felt her hands beginning to shake and she closed her eyes in anger. It was too much. It was just too much. She pulled her legs back into the room, leaned against the wall next to the window and kept her eyes trained on the ground to calm down, but suddenly, she remembered. She still had Kozmotis' drawings! She fluttered over to her desk, took the drawings and sat down on her bed. Carefully, she examined the sketches of his armour of the time when he really had been "Kozmotis Pitchiner" and traced the contour fondly with her forefinger. Toothiana noticed the lump in her throat and sighed quietly. Oh how she missed him…
As she skimmed through, she suddenly spotted a drawing she didn't recognized. It showed to entwined hands. The one hand was larger, whereas the other, smaller hand had tiny feathers hinted on the wrist. She had no doubt the hands belonged to Kozmotis and her.
,, Oh…" Tooth traced the lines of the drawing with her fingers and allowed herself a small smile. Much to her surprise, there were other drawings, like a very detailed drawn eye that, she supposed, was hers. There also was her hand again, a drawing of Baby Tooth and a feather that took up almost the whole sheet.
She'd had no idea he was that good at drawing. The feather, Baby Tooth, everything looked really true-to-life. Lost in thought she studied the sketches until she noticed the shadow hovering in the door: Baby Tooth.
,, Hey, Honey!", Tooth greeted her, whereupon the little fairy responded with a chirp. She peeked at Kozmotis' drawings over Tooth's shoulder and chirped inquisitively, making the tooth fairy smile. ,, No, that wasn't me. Kozmotis made them."
Baby Tooth chirped again, hovered over the drawings to look at them more closely and then smiled up to the taller fairy.
,, Yes, I like them, too… He drew a lot more, look at this." Tooth showed the other sketches to her assistant, who eyed them in awe. At the drawing of the entwined hands, Tooth stopped for a moment and sighed. Baby Tooth glanced up to her, then she tapped on the bigger hand and chirped inquisitively. Tooth smiled sadly. ,, Kozmotis hand…"
The feathers on Baby Tooth's head twitched and she tapped on the smaller hand. ,, My hand…"
The little fairy cheeped uncomprehending and thought for a moment before laying her tiny hands onto the hands of Tooth. The tooth fairy smiled mildly and hugged Baby Tooth. ,, Thank you, sweetheart."
They stayed quiet for some time, but then Tooth sighed and set her little assistant down on the bed. ,, Would you mind to take care of the others a little longer? I'm really tired…"
The tiny fairy shook her head, patted the tooth fairy's hand and fluttered away. Toothiana closed the door behind her little visitor and went to the bed to cuddle with the blanket. As she felt herself relax, she noticed just how exhausted and tired she really was and closed her eyes.
It wasn't only the weariness she felt, though. There was the sensation of something else as she tried to fall asleep:
This aching hole in her heart…